Hm...selepas Azman, nothing much happend in that year.
In form three, i started falling in love with someone. started feeling the jealously, the hunger for attention, and of coz kebahagian bila berada di dalam dakapan seseorang yang kita sayangi...or was it just suke? lust?
Kehidupan di form three completely different. More freedom although in that year i had PMR.
Azlan...
My gay experience in form three started with Azlan. Nope, tak la hensem mana pun. sweet. it all strated when one night he came and menggomol badan aku like a man having sex with a girl. It was just a short while and he left. But because of that incidence i started feeling best, to have a close physical contact with man.
The other night, aku tak dapat tidur. Nafsu yang membuak buak. That time we were using double decker bed. Azlan katil bawah, and aku bahagian atas. That night, setelah begitu sukar untuk tidur, aku turun ke katil bawah, dan duduk di gigi katil Azlan. Azlan terjaga dari tidur, dan terus memberi ruang untuk aku baring di sisinya. Aku baring....dan Azlan terus menggomolku seperti seorang lelaki menggomol seorang perempuan. well...it was only gomol. No kissing, even kissing di leher. Tetapi aku dapat rasakan keranya penis Azlan menujah nujah celah kangkangku, sehingga Azlan terpancut. Dan aku juga terpancut hanya dengan gomolan Azlan.
Najib...
Aku tak pasti kenapa, atau bila, but the reason i stop having gomol gomol session with Azlan is because aku pindah ke bilik sebelah. Dan...di bilik sebelah, it started with Najib, budak Form six atas. Three years older than me. well...i didnt enjoy at all with him. Oh, that time it was an exam week! PMR trial exam week. Cara Najib, Naji always wake up early in the morning untuk study. Dia akan datang ke bilik aku, dan akan menindih nindih badan aku like people having sex. tthat's im ok with...but one thing that i didnt like, bila Najib dah terpancut, dia akan melancapkan aku sampai keluar.And...dia akan ambek my cum and wipe it at my mouth. Of coz, aku mengelak..tetapi kena la jugak...and of coz, that time i dun like the smell...the stickyness, i just dun like it. And with Najib, it was by force. I dun like him...at all. Tak taste...memang tak taste, and ganas! as a matter of fact, i kindda hate him for doing that to me. But, i cant make it stop. Pernah one time..when he came, aku bangun and pergi tempat lain. When i came back, he still there..waiting for me...You may ask, orang lain tak perasan ke? i dont know....i dont know whether they know what happend, and just ignoring it, or diorang bebetul tido and tak tahu? Yang aku tahu...masa tu aku tak pernah ambik tahu, i dont bother thinking it....i just too naive chasing the fun of having that kindda sex. With Najib, banyak kali jugak la...cant remember how many times.
Anuar...
With anuar, it was sweet and simple. I think it happend one or two times only. It all started one night when we all gathered together and listening to scary ghost story. When it ended, in the middle of night i pretended i cannot sleep. Anuar offered me to sleep in one bed with him. And... it happend, as always.
And the last person, the person that means a lot to me. That made me crazy. Yang aku bebetul suka..yang until now, aku masih tak lupa the time that i had with him, his touch, the way he hugged me, the kiss, everything.... his name is Mahadzir......
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